Hey guys!

Things are good here. I just got off from my work duty and now updating my Blog. If you guys didn't know (I don't remember telling u guys), I drive the shuttle van once/twice a week and take people to Walmart/Target. The days I don't drive, I wash the school cars. The driving course isn't long but driving in Hawaii is still kind of fun. Especially Saturday mornings while listening to Hawaiian music.

Anyways, to be honest, my fire to worship God has been dieing. It's hard work pressing in and really focusing on God during worship to feel His presence. Every time I zone in on Him, I feel happy and time goes by really fast. But many days, it doesn't happen naturally, and I need to really try hard to liven up the Spirit in me. I guess I got too used to that feeling and the hard work to get to that feeling isn't worth it. Also, even though I saw the awesome works of the Holy Spirit here, I know there is so much more of God that I haven't discovered or been revealed to. And all the time I've been seeking Him through giving Him my best worship didn't seem to move God enough for Him to change me. I guess that's also another reason I've been getting tired of worshiping Him, the return in blessings I'm getting from God is not enough.

Every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, my DTS goes to the 24 hour prayer room from 1pm-3pm. Somedays, the Holy Spirit is so thick in there that 90% of our school is dancing hard, and people who were sad are full of joy. But somedays are dead, like today. The person leading the worship in the prayer room today said if people are tired, it's not a bad idea to rest in the Holy Spirit and lay down. Many people took advantage of this and were sleeping with their mouths wide opened. I was also tired and especially with my small fire to worship God, I really wanted to get out of there. So when I got enough courage, I stood up to go to my room and just sleep since everyone else were sleeping anyways. When I went out, my leader was on his computer doing staff work, so I ended up talking to him. He reminded me worship wasn't for me to feel good and for me to receive something in return, but to worship God. And times when you don't want to worship but worship God because He is worthy, that's a sacrifice itself. I felt really dumb and deceived by Satan for even thinking the way I did. So I went back inside and started to worship.

While worshiping, Ernie called me for the first time in 2-3 weeks. I couldn't pick up in there so I called him back later. When we were talking, he gave me encouraging words and gave me hope. He's so good at doing that. Ernie reminded me to just enjoy the present and don't beat myself up for not experiencing major change. I also remembered Ernie telling me that spiritually growing is so gradual you usually don't notice the growth until you look back, like when we grow in height. Also it's so true, I shouldn't beat myself up because God will reveal Himself to me when He chooses to. Also me worshiping Him for Him to bless me in return is very selfish, and there is no formula I can create to get myself closer to God; it is He who draws us near.

I'm going to pause with my story of today and tell you what happened yesterday. So yesterday, my DTS class was practicing to hear the God's voice. So a random girl who isn't in our DTS was visiting our lecture, and she was brought up in front of our class. We were to ask God to give us any information about her or give her an encouraging word that we heard from God. When I asked God, Belle from Beauty and the Beast showed up. I had a strong burning to raise my hand and ask her if she in any way related to Belle. But I ended up not sharing.

Ok, so going back to today's story. So I was picking up people from Target to take them back to campus. The girl from yesterday that stood in front of class "happened" to have walked to Target with her friends and wanted a ride back. For SOME REASON, she decided to get shotgun. The weird thing is there were other people in the van that got in with her that I knew better. Also from this past week lecture, I've learned that Faith is spelled R I S K (to step out in faith is to take risks). So although I was nervous to ask and kept thinking how stupid I would look if she had no interest in Belle, I asked her anyways taking a risk. So I first asked her if she liked Disney movies. She said yes in a way like "how'd you know?" That got me excited so I told her how I thought God told me Belle. She seemed very interested because her two favorite Disney movies are Aladdin and Beauty and the Beast. Yeah it can be coincidence, and lots of people do like those two disney movies. But she said how she likes it when people get visions about her that are related to movies. And she felt she resembles Belle's character as other people yesterday during lecture told her characterstics very similar to Belle. Well, coincidently or not, I'm still glad I took a risk by faith today.

More happened in the van when talking to other people that I feel God planned for me. After my work duty, I felt really good. haha i'm such a fruit cake, always being pleased with God when He makes me happy.

Ok, I'm going to end this blog with some exciting things that happened recently and miracle stories. So this past week lecture, a staff at our school named Amy Sollars spoke for us. Since she was young, she was very familiar with the spirit realm. She spoke tongue since she was super young, not even knowing she was speaking tongue at that time. When she was 12 years old, she was about to commit suicide because of hard times but God spoke audibly to her saying "STOP" and she passed out and then woke up with a gun next to her. This happened many times. She also sees angels, prophesy like crazyyy, and many times knocked people to the floor after she opened her eyes when singing on stage. Exciting huh?

Amy Sollars told us stories of a person who was down syndrome but now healed and leading worship. The person still looks like a down syndrome person but his mind is normal. She told us how there are many babies that are young as 2 years old speaking tongue and young kids who encounter angels quiet often.

Many many people including Amy Sollars, Mark Anderson, Kristen Williams believe Jesus is returning soon. Mark Anderson said he had a clear vision and even heard God speak to him internally and clearly about the second coming. Many people who speak here says there will be a revival in the church like never before. More signs, wonders, and miracles will be coming, and more people will have the spiritual gifts of healing, miracles, and all those goodies. How exciting, huh?

Ok, my last interesting story is... so few days ago, my ear got infected from picking my ear with q-tip too deeply. It hurt so much I didn't want to do anything because 30% of my mind will be focusing on the pain. That night, I went to my DTS worship service, and before it started, I was sitting on the side very out of what was going on in the room because of my ear. A friend of mine overheard from someone that my ear was hurting, so she asked if she can pray for me. After she prayed and when I stood up, the heat and tension in my ear relaxed and the pain was gone. The power of the Holy Spirit!

Good night!

I haven't check out her site thoroughly, but you guys should check it out! i'm sure there will be exciting and encouraging words there! www.amysollars.com